I don't usually update with things from my real notebook but these are my questions that I don't have/ don't want answers too...
how are all colors every color but the color you actually see?
How come no other feeling can replace that feeling that invades your soul when music is played?
Who choose black to be darkness and white to be light?
Why do I sleep with a pillow over my head yet have the light on?
How can a book filled with nonsense words at a quick glance bring you to a different world? Do you like that world?
How can Love cause tears of pain just as easy as it causes smilies that make your face hurt?
Why do we cry over no one understanding while deep inside we don't allow others to understand?
How come close relationship create in us such a huge vulnereable state?
Who establishes the wrong side of the bed?
Why do surprises thrill us but uncertainty scare us?
Why do humans love consistency?
Why do some people think while others just react?
Can we really choice our attitude for the day?
Who created fear?
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)And I meet so many amazing people, I learned to reallly appreicate the people I left, friends and such but I also realized how much about myself that I am unsure on, which is always a step in the right direction to understanding one's self better. God has been showing me His love in a variety of ways and it gets me excited to see what trails and great times are to come. Because I've learned no matter how hard a situation may seem I will always have my hope in my Savior Jesus Christ and that truely brings me a peace that so many do not have. Anyway I just wanted to share that I am alive I'm sure I will update soon and you will hear stories of my awesome summer 
